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July 1st, 2009 | Posted by Maggy

Did you ever wonder why we lost 3 famous people in 1 single week? I have come up with a theory,…

 

God must be planning something really big for us up there in heaven, think about it, why else would he call a detective, a salesman, and an entertainer up to heaven in one week?

 

Well that’s my thought on it anyway.

 

Farrah Fawcett was well known for many things, especially for her role on “Charlies Angels”, Billy Mays was a professional salesman on tv selling things like Oxy Clean, and Michael Jackson - well hello - only the best entertainer from my childhood who still inspires many up and coming entertainers even after his passing.

 

I have been busy being addicted to Facebook lately…the games are addicting enough but when you add friends and family in the same game it really gets interesting. A really fun way to connect with each other.

 

My school work is finally getting into the meat of why I was going in the first place. I finally have a business class… Fundamentals of Business. The other class… Research Writing is pretty interesting so far too.  I just hate the fact though, that I have to create another PowerPoint presentation in 7 weeks. I love to write why can’t it be an essay as much as I love those…UGH With a PowerPoint, I just don’t feel like i am getting across what it is I want to say.

 

Jordan was grounded today… I didn’t like his attitude in the store and so I sent him to his room, he was already told he couldn’t play his xbox until he got his room clean, but when I sent him to his room he grabbed the controllers for his xbox and was playing his xbox while being punished to his room. Yea I’m sure he gave it a lot of thought what he did was wrong and why it was wrong, yup right there in between playing Call of Duty. Needless to say once I found out about it  was too late, but now he is grounded from it for another whole day.

 

Deanna was pretty good today, and has been aside from having a cell phone glued to her ear and staying in her room when she isn’t working. We are getting along pretty good. LOL I did get her out of the house for a little bit. I gave her some of her bottle rockets to set off, it was hilarious watching her. She would light the stuff then run from it but wouldn’t let go of the phone, nope it was still glued to her ear.

 

Christian called again yesterday and today. He was asking how we are doing and yesterday he made the comment that the other two seem to be doing better since he isn’t home, well, I tried my best to ignore that, and change the subject. Well he said it again to make sure that I heard him, so I simply told him: “Everyone is responsible for his or her own actions” he was ok with that answer.

Even if it were true, and they were doing better because he isn’t home. I don’t want him to feel that way.

 

Well, it is getting late and I have a few more things to do on facebook, so…

 

Good Night!

 

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June 29th, 2009 | Posted by Maggy

It’s been awhile since I posted in here. I was working on my finals, and I was kind of hiding out on facebook. The games there are very addicting, and I found some of my family members on there. I have not talked to many of them since I was a kid.

I received an A- in Effective Essays, and a B+ in Critical Thinking. I am so proud of myself…LOL

Christian finally called me tonight. I was so happy. I have not talked to him since he went up to Beacon Light about two weeks ago. I miss him so much. He sounds good, but he did say that they increased his meds again. I will have to talk to them when we have our meeting on Wednesday.

I firmly believe that they should start weaning him off a lot of these meds. He has been on many of them since he was 7. Increasing them doesn’t help any.

Andrew came up to visit Saturday, it was so good to see him again. I have missed him so much. Boy is he growing up into a man already. He is now going ot start his Senior year and Deanna is going to be a Junior already…man how time flies.

Michael Jackson died this week, along with Ed McMahon, and Farrah Fawcett, and Billy Mays.  Who is next? Wars and rumors of wards, celebrities dropping like flies… what is this world coming to?

I am sitting here waiting for Jordan to come home from the movies. Deanna is now working for the summer, and learning what it means to really work..LOL

 OH, have I got something to tell you, I got her to join facebook, and I sent her a message the other day  through facebook, I told her how much I love her, and how much I have wanted to hug her but didn’t want to invade her personal space, and went on about how I am so proud of her and she seems more perky now, I know she read it, but she didn’t reply back, but things seem to be good between us again.

Something’s you just have a hard time talking to your kids about in person or you get interrupted or they just don’t want to hear what you have to say, so I wrote it in a message and was able to get everything out that I wanted to say without being interrupted or hurt. This could be a breakthrough in talking heart to heart with her.

I will still try here and there in person, face to face, but this is helping. Family base with Christian is fully done. I am not sure how I feel about that. Family base with Deanna is almost done. Not sure about that either. I am worried though once they are completely done if things will go back to the way they were with Deanna.

She has already started to look online once again for wedding things, and rings, and even wrote a date down, all this points to one thing… her getting her obsession again. But I am not going to say anything, I am just going to wait and hope that this too will pass. Boy I love that saying, if only it worked 50% of the time.

Ok, well I am going to watch tv or facebook again waiting for Jordan to come home.

Good Night!

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June 22nd, 2009 | Posted by Maggy

Today wasn’t to bad, with it being Fathers Day I was worried that it was going to ba rather difficult. It really wasn’t. Kids are very resiliant. Jordan had just turned four a few months before his dad passed away. It has been rather hard on everyone, but Jordan now 10 years old, I took him yesterday over to the cemetary to put flowers on his dad’s grave.

It was raining, and at first Jordan said, “I’m not gettingout of the car” I quickly replied: “oh yes you are, you are going to pay your respects to your dad for Fathers Day” I felt rather worried that I was pushing him, but he did ok. He accepted it and got out with me and helped to put the flowers by the stone. We only spent a few minutes but it was ok. As soon as I felt myself tearing up, I decided it was time to go. I didn’t want Jordan to see my upset, he might have gotten upset too.

Today I took Jordan to a Fathers Day fishing derby, we go every year to both the Mothers Day one and the fathers day one. Only this year we didn’t catch anything. However, later in the day while we were outside sitting at the picnice table with his Nana, he sat accross from me and looked at me and said: “Happy Fathers Day” he no sooner got it out of his mouth I was telling him not to say it. His nana said, “he can say that” I just sat there and thought about it for a moment and looked at Jordan and said, “thank you”

I think today was rather hard on me more than on Jordan. He was alright. The more I kept busy and kept my mind on things the better I was. Jordan was clowning around making me laugh and as I looked at him, I realised how lucky I am. 6 years ago I was so happy then my world got turned upside down. I have been riding the waves since then. But when I look at Jordan and how he has handled this, I learn so much. Even down to hm telling me “Happy Fathers Day”

There is so much we can learn from our children, if we just took the time to listen and put our own emotions aside. Yes, it happened, Frayne passed away, but Jordan moves on, so should I. If only I could find my way. I’m sure I will - someday, but not today.

Tonight when we prayed, Jordan said “tell my dad I love him” as he usually does, but then I added: “tell him Happy Fathers Day” and Jordan repeated what I said, so then I went a bit further “Happy Fathers Day Jesus” and again Jordan repeated what I said. I just hope that he realises that even though his dad is up in heaven, he still has another father - Jesus.

Good night!

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